even when i dont see You, i still believe....

and i am not sure if i dont see Him but i def. have been missing the God mark at a time i feel on need to be in sync with Him.

and yet i can only wait to see what He is going to reveal. i am standing at point a and trying to stay still and loooook as far as i can to point b-c-d-e hoping to follow with my eyes to the exact spot they lead too, and the fact that i cant see that far only makes me discouraged and yet, i will never be able to see that far but just that next step down any one path. and the world tells me a-b the right path is always a -b, b leading to some nice secure job, with money and fame. and yet b-c-d-e are all fair options for me and i feel i dont see God on any of these paths, and yet it's more God is all over every square inch of all of them : )

which only is confusing me more and yet its just so co mforting to know that the God of the entire universe cares enough to cover every path with His prescence and even if i take one wrong step or one wrong path he makes it right he makes it straight. and i look forward to may 2 when i finally have to put my trust fully in Him and that next step.

AND i do now know that graduate school is a good option and BU has the beautiful program i would love to be in, but the problem with the future planning is we cut God out of them and we begin to think thats what i am going to do instead of this is my path of obedience.

faith is shown through obedience and that is all i want to do is be obedient, and i am not sure how that looks as i begin to move to this next phase in His story of my life but....it's time i was just obedient, because i have been doing my own thing way to long.

Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But its now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe

may i not be distracted by anything but You,

tasha