good morning George how are you?

i mostly quoted veggie tales because i love love love this song, this short video and the even the question how are you

how are you? i also answer good/great/awesome. it could be the worst day of my life and i still will say one of those three things, but lately i have been more honest with myself to pin point how i feel. usually excited and ready for anything!

i also really like the song slow fade by casting crowns. so i decided to attach because it humbles me every time:

People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see



but i am starting to make sure that i see to it. i feel as i say knowing the Lord is my JOY.

the end, a bit random too

RIP Jane Schwab Wathall....

wow it's a little weird to think about jane and how she has lost this battle of cancer. she is most def. in heaven which when you say that is supposed to make things more peaceful but i think it still stings. at least in the beginning.

i use to go to jane's house before or after school or both and just hangout. her and charlie would feed me and we'd sit in just chat about life and God and it was amazing because they gave me this glimpse of discipleship and how you go about living your life for Christ. it was so good for me esp. at the time because i was growing into my shell more.

jane would read my school news articles and watch me on tv it was just a great support system for me. i helped them paint there house and i stayed at their house a few time and helped them move into their new place in good ole' howard county. that is the last time i saw jane healthy. i saw he somewhere or at least a pic of her when the chemo started but then she was good for awhile...o nly to get worse.

it feels so weird to have one of the greatest mentors die, but i know that God has her wrapped in his arms and her family esp. her husband because charlie is amazing too.

thanks for everything jane and for just setting me on the right path. inspiration.

What is that you say to me?
You say that you have all the answers and you see what my life ought to be
I can see the need that I bear
What keeps me from your touch?
I know that if I let go
I know that I
I know that I..
I fall apart without you in my life, so I am running to you
Everything that I have known has failed me time and time again
I pray that you would not see me
not see me cause without you, I..
I fall apart without you in my life, so I am running to you

RIP J. S-W.

that's what you get when you let your heart win....

And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating

God has his amazing ways of showing us that He is the most important no matter what. of course i am all sensitive over a boy who i had a total bad communication with, which i noticed by the fact that he is most def. dating another girl who seems pretty awesome. lol. but i realize how important God is despite everything and its these kinds of things that humble and happen for a reason....

i had in my head one thing which was totally construed in my head about him being perhaps "the one"...but God is good. all the time so let us continue to show devotion despite any setback. because a set back for you is not a set back for my Lord.

"here come better days"

today i fell, and thank God my Lord and Savior caught me....

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive...

this song my david crowder is inspiration enough for an update:

the lyrics are:
and I cannot hold it in
remain composed.
love's taken over me
so I propose the letting myself go.
I am letting myself go.

You are my joy.

This concept of God being my joy is beginning to ring true. Joy is more than a feeling it is almost a way of being. Just like loving your neighbor is something more than you do or worship being more than that "sunday thing"...

it has been really good to reflect on the Lord being Joy, and best of all my joy.and i have found a church that i am enjoying until my internship and as much as church can sometimes be annoying i have realized that there is no such thing as a perfect church and i need to stop looking at what church can do for me. the Lord is my joy and nothing else matters, but Him.

may i continue to remember that God is all i need.

You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.

i will not be neglecting this blog again, anytime soon.

tash

weeping, knowing we have been touched.

the david crowder bands new cd is great. i am really bloggin' to share this video its wonderful.

the car shield story...

this story was while i was on my way somewhere. and about to make a left turn on highway 30. kids were crossing the street to go to there soccer game racing sown the street.

two kids across the street kept playing with the cross the street button trying to go across but all the cars were still going. i kept my eye on them as to not hit them but their coach was in a car and saw them. when they finally crossed the street the coach slowed down with them to match their walking pace to make sure that no one went to drive across the street. if i had turned i would have hit him instead of those kids...and any other car for that matter.

i looked on with awe. this is a split glimpse into the amazing character of God. despite the commotions of the intersection the car slowed down to protect those kids....despite the chaos of our world and out ignorance looking both ways before crossing the streets of life..God chooses to go slow and staying with us.

and you know i dont think the kids noticed exactly what there coach was doing and other people who wanted to turn i think got a little frustrated but...i saw God in this coach and it was amazing. knowing that God is with me when i cross the street : )

know that our God is holding and protecting you across those busy intersections of life we get into.

the inflated mattress story...

living here with my cousin i have been sleeping on an inflatable mattress...and if you know anything about these mattress they aren't as comfy as a bed but they take close second and people usually pull them out for guests that stay 8 days not 8 months but yea... ummm this one well the first one deflated and suffocated me basically the second one idk broke before i even used it and the third one....well here is the story

it got a hole in it the week i went away to ship most likely from the little cousin, noah, jumping on it...anywho it got a whole in it and i kept pumping it up and decided that i should just let it deflate because it would be like sleeping on a sleeping bag.

two things about this bed it is to this day not like a sleeping bag and wow...i do not come up with brilliant ideas ever soooo anywho i thought sleeping on a deflated bed would just help me be humble every morning. i have tried not to complain at all about sleep or lack there of and im kinda enfolded as if God were in fact holding me at night it isn't bad at all really but in our world to our world it sucks big time.

and my cousin noah wanted asked if he could sleep in my bed on time recently and i said yes not thinking about the deflation aspect with two people in the bed....but he did sleep in the deflated mattress with me and so well that night.

and i immediately thought about G-O-D. and this whole humbleness/faith as a child. the fact that noah wanted to like really wanted to sleep on the mattress but more so he wanted to sleep next to me and it seriously was really about being near me,,,and this is like God. we need to want to be near to him whether it's and deflated mattress or a hole in the ground...it doesnt matter what "comforts" and pleasures we like to spoil ourselves with it's all about God and being near to Him no matter what the circumstance.

this story is so much more fun in person but let us draw near to God...even on the deflated mattress.