and the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair...

love those relient k lyrics.

thus far this internship has been awesome it is only day two but it has really has been awesome.

monielle[mo] who is here with me has been really cool to get to know she has been an inspiration just able to see God in almost everything...and she is lockin' her hair too...but she has really been great. we cleaned a lot yesterday which whenever i clean and begin to think about how hard it is i remember that to clean me God had to do a lot more than scrub gross old ice cream out the freezer or mystery brown stuff out of the bottom of the fridge.

idk God has really been working already just to be in engaged with other believers who can challenge me without even knowing it and living in community again and serving. i am really trying to regulate my complaining and be objective in even the smallest of conversations.

today was the first day of training so it was cool to hear jason's story and to do bible study with kristen..idk i could ramble about the small things about how my room is set up or all the food we have or the awesome eat outs i have already been to but i will save that for another time i guess, but so far so good.

we already have hw and it just happens to be the same handout i got at camp 2 years ago but yea im ready for what the Lord has and im ready for focus to be off of me...

lent is coming up tooo which is also a good time to reanalyze my world and make it so it is only His....let go give up whatever control i thought i had and learn to live by loving God and loving people.

ohhhh i almost forgot we talked to one of the site directors when we were shoveling snow at a basketball court for the after school hangout spot in southeast children of mine. then the snow blower camp so after we quickly finished up we went inside and talked to ms. hawkins. there is a huge back story on her also for another day but she was telling us about her neighbors son who was shot basically because he did not have a cigarette on him. and when she is telling the story another woman there ms. phyllis who didn't get the whole story so she began using kristen and i as examples and then she pointed at us and said it could have been any of us and idk it just seemed so real to have someone tell me that and actually think through how i could die at any moment really any of us could and yet i live and have so many possessions like i will be here forever. yeah..totally not true. we won't be here forever so it's about time i start storing in heaven rather than here.

we also walked to a sweet coffee shop and just chatted with some of the guys there..there is so much more to this day than i can write in a blog but it was a great day.

im just praying to continue seeing God in all the small things of this city.

'only speak if it improves on the silence.'

tash