well what a week i have had with my group and ytyouthgroup i just ahhh have had an amazing week just growing into this challenge of howting and what is next for me...
this is an excerpt of what i wrote on my iphone a couple of days ago:
not okay, this is not okay. people should be able to pay bills... stuff shouldn't be taken while it's out on the streets. everyone should have home, a place to stay and people to love them. This world has sunken to an all time low for me. my first task this afternoon being to keep a girl from seeing her stuff all over the ground. her mom didnt pay the bills, her mom is barely 20 with two kids both under age of six. and you tell me that everyone has a voice. i dont know what this is anymore. its def. not america at least not what dem forefathers intended. no one should even hit the streets unless their walking. and i dont know what is next i honestly dont know where to start but its time to start to do something to change something because it has been wrong way to long....
i feel guilty and sadden but mostly feel a tug on my heart the church must rise because it is time for me to do more. we tend to be safe in our own strength. because it is going to change dc. and to change this nation/world and i cant idk whether to cry every night or protest every day. i just know that i must do something because our sin has entangled us so far all of us. my selfishness is poisoning, staying safe has become hazardous.
and like i said idk but i do know that it isnt right and we need to start something ahhh do i act in love of fight for love.
so this is what i wrote straight form my h-e-a-r-t and this job is very humbling and very just ahhh sometimes so hard to maintain joy for the people im working with the people im serving without being sadden by what they are experiencing and part of compassion is feeling what they feel and taking it on as your own as Jesus did.
ahhh i struggle with whether o act in love through service as i am doing or to fight for love and respect and justice in with promoting awareness and trying to shape policy perhaps on k street...ahhh idk. all i do know is that i need to do something i must do something i must be changed i must be different i cannot be the same.
there is more a lot more to be pondered and thought about but right now the question s which route of love i take and thinking about it Jesus took both He acted in love with his miracles and sharing his heart and compassion with everyone he met and with that he also fought hard for love with the overturning of tables and the dying on the cross and even within his acts of love he somehow managed to be fighting for love in the political realm of the areas he went to so right now i am in the in between but i know for sure that i am blessed abundantly, there is no other place i am supposed to be right now, and things must change because its not okay out there when anyone is on the streets that wants a bed.
more to come about the gorup in the week.
tasha
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